AmberMe

2006-11-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

message to jay~

girl cheer up.. i was reading eur blog.. thiings always go wrong but we hav to fce up to it sumday.. cheers and stay cool aye.. even iif euu quit skl we can still meet up..

its week end.. again.. so fast.. im waiting for tues.. i love hiim..

2006-11-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

iie am aa happy giirl wiif fwens ard..

iie miiss euu.. and i sure am glad aft eur mum called me last nite.. x)) but than agaiin.. iim gettiing reall worriied and nervous agaiin.. haiish.. coutiing down wiith euu.. waiitiing fer eur repliies..

iim gonna have a new hair do.. X))

2006-11-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

iie suddenly realised how much a difference he made iin maa liife and how much he have changed me.. well everythiing.. the way i dressed, the way i speak, places i hang out.. he iis the only liight source shiiniing iin maa liife.. he means everythiin to me.. iie miss hiim loads.. he might nort be wiith me these few mths physically, but our love will still go on.. wiith the support oof hiis famiily and my fwens, nothiing wiill go very wrong, i hope.. an empty shell i feel i am.. so strong and hard on the outside but so fragiile and empty on the inside now.. only waiitiing fer my hiim to fill me up once again.. wiith hiis love and care..

im still awaitiing for some only good news.. haish..

i aint alone wiith my fwens ard..
i love em all..
iie lorve hiim..

2006-11-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

iid say ii am very lucky to have fwens like jojo ard..
she iis the best.. lurhves her to bits..
she never failed to make me smile..
best frens..

ii went back to skl again today.. aft 5 days holiday..
well iie say iie am speciall..
hahas.. weekend was fun.. working at esprite..
esp with euricia.. she is damn cute!!
she too brought me away from the pain..
at least for that few hours.. i was glad enuff..

iie have sent out the 4th letter..
when will iie receive mine?
or at least, get eur request granted 1st bahs..
ps~ i wan to see euu..
when will dey send dat fucking thing?
CHEE BYE~ pissed off with gov.

iiie miss euu dear..
iiem weak without euu...

2006-11-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

i miss jay.. she quited skll..

i miss skl.. i havent been to skl for like ehmss... since wed or thurs.. i skipped.. i was sick... really..

im sick and tired.. totally..
but iie am strong euu knoe itts ture..

everthin seemed meaniinless..
only thiin dat keeps me moviin iis euu..
euu euur pics and our vedios..
last thing left is our on goiing love..
and euu left eur family for me tc of..
eur lill sisters smile iis all ii need..
eur mums toto stuuff..
well.. i feel more homely dere* with dem..
i love eur mum and eur sis*totally..

when will eur request be granted?

i miss and i yearn..

2006-10-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

fucking POs..
i hate euu all!!

went out with hiis fwens today..
and one of hiis ex??
dah.. its okie.. cos she is datting hiis laopo..
well.. no lesbienlism involved lahs..

bo dai ji find dai ji..
dan omost jio-ed some beh dui guy 1 on 1..
buddan in the end puay sua..

no comments lor..
?nice people

days are drawing near..
and i dun wanna my tears to start falling..
and my smiles to fade..
and the bad feeling to cum back either..

2006-10-26T12:38:00.000+08:00

its NOT complicated!!! ahahahas...
euu mean single and unwanted bahs!!

esprit at bukit panjang IS sad!!
hahas.. totall let down..
but oh well..
i still got myself a pair of WHITE pants!!
woots.. i love it!!
LOVE ESPRIT!!
hahas.. its SO SO SO AFFORTABLE!!
so cheap!!
muahahahas...

in a few hours time!!
LOVES~

he complited his game..
he is happy happy...
and demanded for a pack of ham!!
and green tea..

obahs.. skl is fucking borring..
waiting to make MTV in williams class..
waiting for all tim leongs lesson..
cos i wanna play with that tomboom thinggy..
miss april, i love her photoshop..
but i can do it at home myself..
hahas.. and uncle ee is nt teaching us no more.
BOOO~

2006-10-25T09:20:00.000+08:00

hahs.. double pay yest!! woots~

BOOO!~
euu said euu hated..
but now euu went back on eur words..
but hahs!! euu ain gonna affect me!
eur life suck! euu lifeless idiot..
muahahahahass..
lick some shit in some ass!!

2 more days~

2006-10-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

hahs!! thiis blog iis getting web all over alredy..

just look at my last entry..
like ages and thousands of years ago lerhs..

im quite happy with my work!!
loves~ ESPRIT..
have got lotsa photos to upload too..
but im lazy..
lappie with deardear..
cant blog.. ahahas..
im in skl now~blogging!!
BOOO!!! bleahhs~

class is fun with lotsa monsters~
but i love em all..

will euu put the past behind and get on?
its over le..

we are great and fine..
in love..
4 more days to go!!

2006-10-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

ill be like so tired tml and day after!!
working full shift.. like more dan my normall 8 hrs can..
oh well.. all for the sake of the pay!!
and of cos the 5o% staff perchase lor!! smwacks!

and im only looking forward to *aft work tml lor..
hahas.. cos bii ish gonna send me home!
SMILES
aft work will be like 9 ald..
hmms... by the tyme he reach hm???
thanks dear.. and sorry..

2 full days of working and ill be back to skl!!
cant wait.. kinda excited..
BOO!! i dun wanna dye my hair back!!
i love the colour it is now!!
tou the red has faded.. i love my *kim-moh!!
hahas.. LMAO!!!
seriosly need a haircut..
but no tyme to ald!!
FARTS

i love people ard me!!
totally love my dear!!
start to love er jie..
loving my fwens..
AII SII JOANNA LAU ZHEN HUI!

ill smack euur bud!!

my only LOR gang..
im the LOR MEE!! ~ skinny sis
jiams the LOR BA!! ~ meaty brother
cherly the LOR NENG!! ~ eggy mama
wei the LOR CHAP!!! ~ sticky papa

sound stupid but we are FUN!!
loves

2006-10-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

weets!! will be back in skl in few days time..
hahas.. miss all the * lao hong-ed things in the co-op shop.. lolx..
and i sure miss my locker!!

plus the big skl gate where biibii will pick me up from skl..

hahahs.. but id be like so busy when skl starts again..
with all the work the i hav to cope with and work..
work as in work not homework.. lolx..

im happy..
im loved..
im all his..

2006-10-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

okie i just realise i havnt been blogging for ages..

SORRY!!

day are great with HIIM!!
i say IM A HAPPY PRINCESS!!

but than again i miss my fwens..
all of em so much..
esp james and jojo
and not to forget the malaysian gang too!!

oky.. skl is starting soon..
kinda.. ya dun wanna go back..

tags are replied

james~ dun like jc gals too!! BOO!!
dey only cum in ans mess things up..
hahas.. JC gals no money buy ESPRIT!!!
but than again dey dun cum i got nth to do liaos..
bishan is pathetic..

2006-10-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

(("v")) i hate tml..

i swear i sucked..

i swaer i was lazy..

i swear i skipped skl..

i swear i broke lotsa rules..

i swaer all my works weere last min..

but fucking hell!!!

i passed!!!

im great..

i RULE!!

3!!!

kiss my arsse!!!

2006-09-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

(("v")) hugS kisseS smoochieS (("v"))

* (("v")) biibii sent me home today.. X))
two tired souls.. (@.@)
a pair of lovly dovvy.. <<3
movies and pasta.. (^.~)
happy happy day.. (("v")) *

im a happy girl..

im loved..

my prayer and wished came true..

im da pwincess..

im his pigcess..

im eur princess!!

moved and im quite pleased..

sorry peeps.. i know i have been away..
i was really quite usy tou...
working and loving..
hahas.. will update soon..
i promise!

I LURVE JOANNA LAU!!!

I LOVE WONG JUN XIONG!!!

2006-09-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

(("v")) court date is drawing nearer.. we are both all stressed upp already.. he has turst inn me.. he belivees.. and will too.. and we bothh proomiised.. our lovee.. smuuackies..(("v"))

i swear im tired..

hahas.. dun tok to me bout bikes and helmats...
ill laugh my ass off!!
oh well.. think she kinda deserve the nice treats..
*thumbs up
UERINE!! LONGAN!! SALIVA!!

i love my class!!
fey totally rwack the hell outta mie!!

i wana walk outa eur lifes..
euu guys are so not fun..
i hate em'
dey are so not khool..
bunch of idiots...
dun try to harm him..
i wun let euu off...

i LOVE jojo!!
boo!! hahas..
smwackies!!

nini study hardie larhs..
lolx..
mus score well okies!!
add oil add oil!!

2006-09-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

(("v")) weets.. happy happy.. gonna visit biibii with his mama tml.. smies~
he is trainin hard inside... and obviously he has a better buit now..
oh well.. nt dat dun hav but is better now la.. X))
missess lots.. (("v"))

life is gettin mre n mre meaning less..
without his presence..
nothing seem perfect..

to everyone taking their exams soon.. esp niinii!
hahas.. yeaps.. got eur link fro peiqi duhs..
ehms.. do take care alrite..
study harddie too..
mus meet up and chill sumtime..

i so miss all my dearly pri skl pals..
everything dan were so purfect..
so cleanny and white..

just realise life nw sucks..
nt only with the presence of......
but also dat pple ard me r trying to spike one another..
friends arre fighting..
couples are breaking..
gals are becuming mummy..
and i mean gals..
even adults are weird..
what have becum of this world?
sad..

its okay anyway..
im living in my own space..
my own palace with my love..

intruders stay away..

2006-09-17T22:33:00.001+08:00

(("v")) i miss my babii so much..
cant wait to be in his arms again..
have got so many things i wanna tell him..
dear i need euu.. (("v"))

i am really glad to have all my fwens ard. .
coz with their presence im never alone!

to dearest jay..
do take care alrite..
thanks fer eur place fer OUR hair..
stay stromg..
stay cheers..
dun give up on her alrite...
try to win her back..

but dun ue force..

bottom line..

DEARDEAR I LOVE EUU!!
WO AII WONG JUN XIONG!!

2006-09-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

i said once
and now again

kindly put up eur name if euu wanna tag..

if euu dun fucking dare to put eur name
dan dun fucking bother to tag la..

2006-09-17T15:25:00.000+08:00

(("v")) i am glad i can visit him tml again.. i miss him oh so much.. dardar hearts..
lets hope the lawyer is doin his job nw.. or i'll kick his arse.. 1500!!! i miss euu!!
deardear hearts berber.. berber loves deardear.. xiaohu laogong biibii(("v"))

im rotting ald.. been quite bust these couple of days with moving hm stuff..
didn even hav time to take puffs.. i CANT!!
1 ran out of it
2 cannot
3 trying to kick it off..

sniffsniff

i declare i am GUAI!!!

I AM SPOILT

I AM LOVED

I AM DE PRINCESS

I HATE 1 J AND LOVE THE OTHER BIG Js

FUCK OFFF

EUU ARE UNWELCUM

2006-09-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

(("v")) I LOVE WONG JUN XIONG!! XIAO HU LAO GONG!!! (("v"))

tired tired.

i envy people with no brains..
coz dey can be blunt~ and nobody blames em'..
dey jus say wad eva cums to their mind..
obviously we cant blam em..
we knoe dey lack braincells..

sometimes,
i so feel dat brainless people are quite fun oso..
coz i realise dat dey oftan laugh at their own jokes..
the sight of it makes me laugh.. X))

unlike us.. we have to think of hw others will feel first..
if we(normall ppe) were as blunt..
people will blame..

and dan again..
if we laugh aat our own jokes..
pple will think we r mad..

I ENVY BRAINLESS PPLE!!

2006-09-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

(("v")) as usuall i went to meet dear dear today.. with his daddy and ahma.. dear is happy today.. smiles~ sent ahma home dan uncle and ie go meet dears mamie and ah xiang.. aunty was late.. like every other time.. dan uncle started to tell me their *long time ago pat-toh story.. went to meet the lawyer liaoz dan had lunch together.. hahas.. ah xiang and uncle.. very funny lor.. fight n fight.. just imagine an adult and a 11 yr old ger.. lolx.. dear.. we all love euu.. our promise.. and we all pray.. (("V"))

i was just wondering..
y do people laugh at their own jokes..
kinda cold to me tou..
or aft swearing at someone, dey luagh..
weird yeah..
muz be a physco..
oh.. i feel so sorry fer dat person..

i love all my fwens.. all my close ones!!
my loved one!!
esp MY Junxiong
my big Js sista!!
Joanna Jolyn Joyce Jay
my big Js bro!!
James John Jacky Jianming!!!

dey were always everywhr..
ready to catch me iff ii fall..
make me smile when i had tears..
cleared my thoughts when i was cnfused..
stood by me rain or shine..
the only Js in my life..

(("v")) biibii and i love kids..
and he just loveSs the way i am.. (("v"))

2006-09-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

loves..

2006-09-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

my redish golded halfed head.. iim a spoilt girl..

2006-09-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

(("v")) saw biibii today again.. weets!
gona meeet him tml oso.. pass him his books..
and buy some stuff oso.. lalalas..
i wish these days will past FAST..(("v"))

finish exams today..
i flung mr williams one.. sorry..
i didn study la.. Xp
but think ms april deh can pass..
damn easy..
but bottom line..
i studied fer neither..

5 weeks hols!!

well.. who is the sad one here?
who is the one making noise?

what have euu got to compete with me?
met his parentS?
his sister see euu b4?
his grandparentS?
his uncleS?

what have euu?

define *si san ba again..
if i am one.. i wun hav GOOD friends IN and OUT skl..
and xiaohu wun be with me either..

than again, if my friends are "fake"..
they wun help defend me against anything evil..
they would hav left me alone..
and my relationship with xiaohu
wun have lasted 5 going 6 mths..
and he wun even bother to plan OUR future..

so it all proves im no *si san ba...

not jealous? than stop acting like euu are..
go get eur own life..
stop saying i spoil eur mood..
coz i dunnoe euu..
and i did nothing to spoil eur mood..

i merely blogged on MY blog..
so.. do i have to gian permission from euu
on what to blog?
ask euu on what i can call my BF?
is this a joke or wad..

to jay gf: EUU ARE DAMN HOT TOO!! x))
hope eu and her will be over with this *hardship soon..
take care girl.. and hold on tite..
dun let her slip away.. she really love euu dahs..
~love~lurves~lov~luv~

(("v")) i love my man (("v"))

i love my fwens..

2006-09-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

(("v")) saw biibii today.. shuang.. mis him badly.. he cried (("v"))

im sad.. sad for somone ard me..
she actually got married like on 16!!!
scary.. sad..

haha.. ad mac now..
trying to study fer tml de exam..
but some grp og guys and 3 ger are making
fucling lotsa noise.. SHOUTS..
GRRRZZZ...
james is pissed...
waiting for him to shout and shut em up..
hahahs..
free show..

(("v")) miss my loved one (("v"))

2006-09-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

(("v")) biibii i miss euu!! (("v"))

ill wait no matter how long..
coz its worth it...

thanks everyone..
everyone who still cares..
everyone who tried to keep my tears away..
everyne who tried to make me smile..
XIExIE..

my gum hurts..

2006-09-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

("v") dear i miss euu soOo much..i really do..
59hrs and +++ mins to go..
and hopefully id see euu again..
ii love euu my dear..
ii love wong junxiong..
ii love xiaohu..
ii love my laogong biibii..
awaiting for our own place eur dad promised.. ("v")

thank god for giving me great fwens..
dey acc. me truout the day..
dey tried their bez to keep my tears away..
but dey still rolled dwn my cheeks sumhow..
thanks alot anyway..
i really did enjoy..
but the pain within is still greater..

``i dun wana be alone..
coz id cry..
i dun wanna go to bed..
coz when i wake up i can feel euu no more..
i dun wanna euu to leave..
coz id fall, im weak..``

("v")dear i need eur presence..
i need eur comfort..
i need euu to wipe my tears off..
i need euu to rub my tummy..
i need euu coax me..
al i want is euu to be back.. ("v")

i like to walk in the rain..
no one can tell if im crying..

i loved the big rain i was in jux nw..

("v")if euu were with me..
eud try eur very best to keep me dry,
like euu always did...
euu wun let get wet any bit,
coz euu knew id fall sick...("v")

("v")days with euu = loved
days with euu = im a princess
days with euu = smiles("v")

2006-09-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

for an instance..
im not sure if im still standing strong..

snap me out of it someone..

2006-09-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF AND GO TO HELL!!!

I HATE EUU!!
i hate gamblers!!

im in a fucking bad mood..

i wished money didn exsist..
i wished i wasnt me..

i wished and i regreted!!!

fuck fuck fuck!!!

2006-09-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

went kra-ing with dear de mama yest..
and ah xiang and ah mei also.. hahas..
biibii(we) were on time but aunty was like 1 1/2hr late..
biibii was damn pissed off.. but aft that okie le..
had dinner tgr aftwards..
and i promised xiang loves loves loves..
hehehehs..

biibii proposed to me!! in advanced..
how sweeet.. hearts hearts hearts euu!!!

i declare! i have posesion over all his belongings!!!
its just between him and me!!
its only us...

2006-09-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

~chi bu dao pu tao shuo pu tao suan~

is it always the case that when one cant get somethings of *its dreams
*it turn nasty?
well i suppose so..
perhaps it is ^normal "human" instincts bahs..
LMAO...

okie.. someone define to me whats *protection..
hahahahahas..

was just thinkin if id need to seek for it...
ehhmms... seem like i dun have to afterall..
lolx..

2006-08-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

teachers day today? kinda boring tou..
miss dous days bk in sec skl days..
and of cos my pri skl celebrations!!

stupid performances in Bite..
totally BORRING!!

loves dmd 1p..

dahhsz...
dunnoe why i was v tired..
aft skl go mit biibii..
slack at jekjek hse..
and i dozed off on the sofa!!
used biibii jacket as blanky..
hehes.. dan felt biibii kissing me alot of times.. think iie dunnoe..
~sweet..

im tired..

2006-08-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

we were playing emo in clas yst during unclee ee lesson.. it was damn fun la... thanks ayu for dolling me up sial.. i was like screaming and crying for help in the begainin.. but realise it was quite nice!! dan everyone borrowed my eye-liner ard to *draw.. wheeps~

was at jek jek hse again yest with biibii.. nth much lor..

today biibii acc me go x-ray.. dan we took a cabby dwn to jek jek hse.. awhile ltr went hm.. hahas.. happy happy happy.. biibii fold star sttar fer ME!! sunomre he sae he NV do anything fer anyGER B4!! im the first one.. dan every star hav *i love you.. bii is so sweet.. hehes.. love him to the max... smoouakS!!!

2006-08-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

`` was at dears jekjek hse today.. slack.. and starved.. all the way untill jekjek cum home.. tou bii did gave my cash to but food.. in the end nt ie eat.. is the 2 lill one makan.. had slight mood swings.. but was norm again coz bii coaxed me!!

woakakakas.. tml goin bk to oss.. with my dearly jojo.. dan aft dat meet biibii catch movie.. ehms.. one mre mth fro today dan 1/2 yr lehs.. happie happie... BIG BIG smiles.. x)) loves my xiaoHU loads.. my mr ng..

`` protection care concern love dotes pamper-s AND tralalalas~ is our promise to each other A LIFE TIME!! hearts and smoochies..

2006-08-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

hearts everyone ard me.. hate everyone outa mua circle..

hates. everyone hu think dat dey v eh sai..
hates. evreyone hu are blind..
hates. everyone just hold on fer nth..

loves. mua loagong..
loves. mua fwens..
loves. pple with me..

2006-08-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

im damn pissed off today.. fucked up..

but bii sttill drew sum smiles on me!!
went to catch snakes on the plane today..
it was quite nice.. yeaps..
not bad la.. but sum parts are quite groosem..
tou its obviously com temp.ed with la..
da snaks are rather horny id say..
lolx..go watch it and eud know y..
hearts bii loads..

fucking hell.. today almost tdj with some guys...
super shaggy sial.. long story dun wanna explain..

met one farkin guai lan xDIdi..
i manged to crew him up wit jiams..
super shuang.. xp

dan i lost my *likes

missed 2 buses to tpy..
dan bii dulan coz hav to wait long long..

bii pissed off coz he is hungry
stupid bus driver..
but he still smiles at me and
kissed my forhead like every other nites..

dan ii missed my bus home too..

V pek chek la..
just feel like screaming my heads off at everyone!!
everything js pisses me off..

i need sumtime alone..
so just
FUCK OFF..

2006-08-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

cute?? tou its taken quite long ago..
hahas.. angie mei mei.. biibii jekjek dehx nu er..
she damn ke aii wan la.. everytime go her house she'd do nth but eat.. dun see her small small size eat alot one wor.. lolx...
see biibii hugging her.. sweet.. she is declared CUTE!!!

2006-08-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

loves

2006-08-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

hahas... i was in skl today.. fer like half dae? lolx.. dan run off meet laOogOong at int.. went to get bk smth** dan he acc me go get mc fer my missed lesson.. aft tat pei him go the *eagle egg dan go his place slack.. we had mac fer dinner with his daddy and ahma.. lalalas... nth much lor.. and ya.. this pics were taken ad hiis place.. smooochies laogong..

and yeah.. we played badminton during PIE today.. ad first super form-y.. dan we all got tired.. i began to sit on the foor and play.. super shuang can.. dan missed quite alot of smacks fro Xwei.. tralalalaSsSsssssss.... dan super big idiot ~CHEN WO JAI JIANG HUA DE SHI HOU smack one hard one on my face.. but this nice BIG hard shoot gave me nice nice excuse to run off.. Xp STUPID Xwei!!! but THANKS!!!

when we were ad the clinic the darn doc purposly press my swollen part and ask me pain not.. supper boo nao la.. bai chi.. hehehes.. dan bii sayang moi.. loves..

saw jack, his ger and lill ah bii ad the clinic oso.. ah bii grow up alot le.. last time i saw him was like only few mths old.. nw he can run scream and jump lor.. lol.. hw fast tym fies.. ~yi juan yen jiu 2 yrs guo le..

2006-08-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

i hope der will be good news fer bii bii tml.. sianzation.. might be gonna pon skl tml again.. dan go biibii hse slp in da morn.. go see doc tgr.. go court.. dan bedok?? dis MIGHT be the plan fer tml bahs.. sianz ar.. scared my gpa kanna affect..

("v") biibii damn cute.. hahas.. machiam a kid liddat.. silly boii.. xp loves him loads..
hope aft reading oOur lill diary eued knoe wad goOin oOn.. loves.. ("v")

today actualy supposed to go biibii *wai-po hse makan dehx.. but in e end nv go.. arbo can see ah xiang and ah mei.. coz i had to reach hm early fer MY famiy re-union.. sian lor.. emms... when ah xiang skl hols hav to bring the sisters go watch movie.. hahas.. scared i might be working sial.. nvm.. will have time de bahxx..

and yeah.. dis morn when i took cab to bii hse.. i took dis damn weird deh cabbie... once euu get in machiam thai-temple liddat.. damn holy siallla.. all the scripts and stachus.. dan the driver machiam dunnoe wad.. nv wear seat belt.. attire machiam tourist.. aiyo.. look as if he steal the cab like dat lor.. weird.. buddan he damn chatty.. very nice lor.. but still,, WEIRD...

alalalas..
im tired..
goin t bed nw..
tatas..

2006-08-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

ours

2006-08-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

love

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

2006-08-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

2006-08-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

im to lazy to blog alredy..

all dead inside..

fucking day
school is all fucked up..
freaking people out der..
fucking taxi drivers..
fucking attitude problems..
an all fucked up life..

was damn gald john kor called..
at least someone still cared..
its reallt been ages since i last met him..
like maybe n my birthday?
which is like half a yr ago..
i miss euu so damn much kor!!
EUU ARE SOMEONE SO DEARLY IMP IN MY LIFE..
yes euu might be busy with eur army stuff..
and sure had made many new army buds..
having to keep in contact with all eur JC fwens..
euu didn forget me..
i'll never forget how much euu wanted me to be independent..
and how euu cheered me up when i cry..
how euu told me everything was gona be fine..
how hard euu tried to help me find skls when euu heard i failed my Os..
how eud encourage me to move on tou euu never liked the idea of me goin to ite..
everything.. everything euu said kept me goin for the past half yr..

i miss euu..
and yeeppeess..
im gonna met him soon...
gona catch movie..
gege xie xie nii..

and talk bout fucking taxi drivers..
with fucking attitude..
arghs.. SHB 9960
fucking cao he lang..
arse hole..
made a fraking BIG D-tour ard sing to bring me home..
wad.. think i toursit ar..
like i dunnoe sing like dat la.. bai chi only..
i usually take 730-780 to reach home from biis place..
dan the freaking driver earned my extra 3 bucks!!
like dat nvm.. show me fucking attitude..
machiam sai like dat..
if euu give me god service i dun mind letting euu earn these extra 3 bucks lor..
lan jiao attitude..
piss me off only sia..

2006-08-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

doin some hair stying in class today.. we had lotsa fun..

2006-08-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

arghz!! i hate some *oh pehs with thick and bushy mostucheSs... eeks.. *pui *yuckZz

i was on the train goin to skl this moring with james..
dan we saw this *oh peh
in the same cabin
*bio-ing this other girl who was slpin her way tru..
she wore a not really low-cut tank top..
dan the freaking bushy man
leaned forward
and tried to bio her *neh neh..
*arse hole!!
jiams and i daio the bushy man la..
who wun diao him?!
freako bushy man
dun dare to play with us!
*hum-ji-bushy arse hole!!
diao a while dan
dun dare to look bak at us..
he tried to distract himself
and guess how?!
he diggied his nose in public!!
pouts-pui* nvm..
he digg liaoz he put his *sai
in his busshy hair above his mouth!!
( busshy enough ma..
can hide all his sai..
who knows its his habbit liaoz..
gao bu hao inside is
his collection of *mak-sai and pi-sai..)
he continues to digg out
his *mak-sai and look away..
dat stupid hum-ji busshhy man
dun even dare to look at us
when we get down the train..
well we were nice,
so we told the ger that she was bio-ed..
but WTF.. she say NVM??!!
if i were her id rather go confront that fucking man ar!!

okie... story over.. .

2006-08-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

the name sky is always standing in our way.. i hate him!! i hav stopped contacting him ald... wad more else do euu wan from me?

sometimes its really hard to maintain a relationship.. maybe not to some of euu reading this but well.. i do feel so.. euu hav to juggle so many things all together at one time.. and things gets worse when eur partner only wants things to go his or her way ONLY.. when dey dun wanna cooperate with euu.. worse is when dey dun understand euu..

i wish sumtimes euu were more understanding.. i wish eud speak to me of all eur problems.. i wish i was the one eud turn to when eu hav problems.. i wished..

2006-08-02T15:40:00.000+08:00

what wrong hav i done this time? i dun get it at all.. why do euu only look at my bad? wad about all that ive done for euu? ive said so much.. done so much yet all drowned in some words he said.. reasssure me again.. who am i? the ring.. what does it signify? our love? or izzit just some deco on my finger? my time spent? i knew long ago eud think nth of it.. cos its always my own wishful thinking that i wanna mit euu everyday.. but when ever i didn mit euu.. euud say i changed.. my lifestyle hav changed becoz of euu.. thanks to euu i lost contact with so much of my frenz.. and missed so much chances to do stuff that i want to.. and now euu wanna call off everything for some fucking words that euu heard from THAT sky? so im nth compared to him la? thanks.. ive got nth much to say.. bye my love..

2006-08-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

alrite.. lets say we might be over today..

or shall i put.. we are over ald..

FUCK EUU SKY! i HATE euu!

2006-08-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

i had soo much to say.. and lotsa tears wanna flow.. i weak i say.. and shall be very muc weaker when euu leave..

i cant belive that fame and power could ever change anyone so much.. totally dissapointed.. euu were someone i trusted and whom id confide in everytime im down or toubled.. euu WERE someone so caring so nice so comforting.. never could i think that euu could have changed so much and gave up everything.. so something i feel is not worth it.. now euur everything that euu gave up includes eur frenz * eur sisters * eur MEI * eur brothers * OUR trust *.. to just think that al these inexchange for some freaking fame * power and ginnaS? and wtf.. eur ginnaSS all BUAY GAN one la.. i hate euu.. hate euu for everything euu said and EVERTHING euve done.. dun even think about breaking us up.. i MIGHT be "alone " when his in, but listen here.. my mind is set up ald.. euu are only wasting euur time physco-ing me to giv up.. "alone" i might be but i still have true and real frens ard me.. id never give up my EVeRythiNG coz they are just too impt to me.. i dun need fame nor power.. i like me life this way.. i dun wish to change it.. I HATE YOU*

my him is so busy these few nnights with tmls *thing and is busy attending *seng duahs.. i wish i could just tie him to me so hed never leave my sight.. 6 more days.. still counting down and praying hard.. pls be alrite.. hearts euu lots..

this is for jameZ-desire
qouted*
wife to hubbii : i wanna start a family
hubbii to wifr : lets do it with james..

*pengs.. catch this advert at the SINGAPORE POST OFFICE..

skl is starting to get boring these few days.. its just bubble tea and more bubble tea.. arbo makan in skl canteen.. sibei sianz ar.. lol.. but i found new food.. raddish* honey wings and cup corn.. loves*

-

2006-07-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

we have only got two week left.. i just wantu spend all my time with euu before euu leave.. i know id miss euu.. and i might just bbrk down anytime like the 24th.. but i hav total faith in my fwens and kors that they'll help me up and keep me stong and on going.. 5-7 years sounds long.. but i promised id wait.. i will.. *faith and trust

bii i hearts euu...

happy birthday to euu.. happy birthday to euu.. happy birthday to to hubbii.. happy birthday to euu..

sweet 18 bii.. muackz!

2006-07-23T16:55:00.000+08:00

well.. skl is starting tml.. and im quite pleased.. coz id get to meet all my friends again.. and i belive they'd make me smile.. loves*

mama bought me a addidas jacket.. my still O favoureate PINK colour!! smooccheiis..

im bored.. v sianz.. rotting at home.. bleahx..

smths really wrong with us these few days.. we keep quarrellin.. hate it..

2006-07-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

whats with all the communication breakdown? what the fucking hell is goin on? what went wrong? if its me id change.. but y wont euu? i wun sae euu sucks.. coz euu dont.. i DO!! its always my fault izznt it? euu are always ryte.. euure always the victim.. i do all the murder and i caused all the pain in US..

do i deserved to be treated this way? yes... ...

2006-07-19T12:48:00.000+08:00

smoking kills.. agree? its hakims hand behind..

2006-07-19T12:47:00.000+08:00

some print taken on e same day

2006-07-19T12:41:00.000+08:00

some picS taken quite long ago on jiamS and xiao weis birthday.. jus nice i was feeling right down that day.. thanks alot peeps.. euu guys made my smiles and laughter AGAIN.. euu never failed to do that.. X))

2006-07-19T12:38:00.000+08:00

da outram gas in bedok ite 1P

2006-07-19T12:37:00.000+08:00

im falling apart again

2006-07-19T12:18:00.000+08:00

skl ish starting again.. soon.. sianzation seh.. but thinking of the people in skl, id SMILE.. *jiamZ *cheryl *xiao wei ge.. these people rwock my skling daes in ite.. ^sei gao gang^

suddenly i felt as if we're drifftin appart.. so far i counld feel eur presence anymore.. maybe its our thinking.. or the way we do things now.. i dunnoe.. pls cum back..

i might be getting myself a jacket today.. if nothing goes wrong no more..

2006-07-17T11:04:00.000+08:00

my poor lill bloggie seemed to be discared ald.. nobody is visitin it! how poor thing.. and thats thanks to me for nt updating tou..

okie.. continue of my previous post.. my mini skirts..
damn.. ill miss my every single one.. coz i cant wear em anymore.. i wanna be nice coz i dun wanna get into fights with him no more over wad i wear.. protective or possesive? or both? ahas.. lets just say he loves me.. and maybe my skirts were really tooo short? oh well.. talk about skirts.. ill never wear them long.. never.. so people from now on.. eud only see me in jeans.. long JEANS.. * nt long SKIRTS tou.. ahahahas.. damn.. ive got only like 3 pair of jeans.. sighs..

ive got to go get changed now.. rushing off..

shall update again..

2006-07-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

ill miss my mini skirts..

2006-07-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

people.. if euu freakinly wanna tag my blog.. pls put up euur freaky names so that euu can FREAK me OFF!!!

its holidays now... slacking everyday.. xiaowei go bk malaysia liaoz.. jamesn mugging fer his Os.. cheryl busy with her LV.. im doin nth constructive..

GB
girls.. i swear i lost all euur number tgr with my hp the last tyme... pls pls pls MSG me at 93822730... i wanna meet up some time..

2006-06-20T10:38:00.000+08:00

lalalas.. its like 5 of em now.. pouts*

i bout myself a new dress!!
was off shopping with james last sunday.. smileS*
and a new skirt..
lalalas.. great shopping pal..

im tired of *being in lurve

2006-06-16T09:57:00.000+08:00

im back again.. all messed up again..
haish.. dunno wad so fucking wrong with mie..

thanks jian ming fer alwayhs being here for me..
always trying to pick me up and bring back my smiles..
always there to wipe my tears off..
thanks fer everything euuve done..
i know how euu feel towards me..
ii know.. but id prefer tu b frenz..

i dun wanna update anything bout chris..
hiis a dissapointment..

xhu changed alot for me ald.. i mean alot..
his temper hav somehow cooled dwn..
he no moe the xhu i dun like so much..
but all his done have yet to bring my love back..
im just lost.. lost in my own world..
drowned in my tears, fears, sorrows.. PAIN..

alrite.. i think my tao hua yun is coming back..
it seemed like im catching alot of unwanted attention again..
and again.. and i dun like it at all..
frenz.. is it nort enough? y muz euu people think bout smth more?

i miss my smiles..

yeeps.. im so goin to malaysia tml..
SHOPPING!! but heard lotsa scary things fro xiao wei..
lotsa theft cases.. cries*

frenz in skl are fun.. loves <<3
JIams james.. cheryl jie jie.. xiao wei.. lincoln.. muackz..

2006-05-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

myself

2006-05-13T09:31:00.000+08:00

okie.. lets say i...

i was summoned into the room last nite...
hard questions poured out.. ``phiew
lalalas.. euu hab bf ar`hw euu noe him lalalalas..
dunnoe how she knoe i was with xiao hu..
dan one super nice sms read smth like this `` dayii tell mummy dehx

now my only question ish how DAYI know??!!
`` bites bites bites `` arghz

okie im gonna collect my ic later.. X)
hehehes.. been kinda evil..
woke sky up pei me go take... dan aft tt go mit Xhu..

tatas!

2006-05-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

let me juz start off with.. ~ im freaking hungry!!

i was quite enjoying myself in skl today..
maybe only juz james and i were anjoying..
something weired juz came up to us n we keep laughing..
maybe its juz the OSS laughing gas! *phiew..
hope i`ll be like back to normal tml.. ((:

hmmz.. im still like freaking hungry!!

i gort myself a new pair of shoes! and a NEW black wallet..
BIG BIG smiles (((:

say im lucky all my life`` so far..
i always hav berry nice kors n bros looking aft miee!!
`` orange n apple gege `` john kor`` jakie kor``
``terence bro `` darius bro ``si ping`` jian ming``
juz to name a few..
thanks alot people..
i noe i havnt been a v good girl.. THANKS fer not leaving..

2006-05-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

skl started..

okie.. first day was freakingly boring.. i swear i can die..
but than of coz im still alive for i ran off 1/2 way.. shhh...
cant help it but the '' orentation sucked big time..

okie and em.. 2nd dae today lor..duhhz..
biibii sent me to skl today.. BIG smiles.. ((:
made 2 new fwenx.. 3 actually but fellicia got a transfer..
and em.. sam and johhny r oso in bedok.. diff course tou..
em.. DMD hav james.. same sec skl as me dehx..
so im nort that ``solo..

im so freakingly nort feeling well tonite..
im itching all over.. RASHES..
eekks..

i still dunch like that freaking whore!!

AND PLEASE STOP LEAVING STUPID TAGS LIKE * AH LIAN AND AH BENG *
IFF EUU FREAKING DARE TO TAGG.. PLS PIN UP EUUR FUCKING NAME.. BO JII THAN DUN FUCKING TAGG!!! PCB!!

2006-05-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

lill things can really piss me off sometimes.. and of coz nort to mention certain bitches.. i go mad..

seriosly.. i learned how to control myself already..``sometimes..
for i dunch wanna make thing worse.. i kept quiet..
but that dosent mean euu can get too far off..
coz it wun be nice``i swear if i were to blow up..

school is like startin real soon..
im nort excited at all.. not any bit..
school start mean alot of things.. :((

no spending my every min with euu..
no goin out everyday..
and the fucking list goes on and on..

alrite.. i might fucking change my mind bout skl..
but for the moment.. i wish i wasnt enrolled..
say wad eva euu wan..
i noe i soud rather dumb and stuuupiiidd..

2006-05-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

he smokes and play cards``i take photos say iim all about lurving hiim

2006-05-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

dun talk about my dark`eye`rings.. its just da smerged eye`liner.. ask about the man`hiis my man``

2006-05-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

amber'rachel say we hav found our prince.. `fairytales

2006-04-26T10:05:00.000+08:00

i hate xio tang!! i hate celest!!

euu farking whore!!

2006-04-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

say..

im pretty happy today.. :))

say..

its been a great day fer us..

say..

happy birthday to my mei, meng fan..

say..

i lurve euu my love..

sMooChiieS <<3

2006-04-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

alrite im back again..

hehes.. i know kor kor john is reading!! hehes..
im sorrie.. i think i lost euur number tgr with my lost phone.. )):
i was with xiiao hu the other day euu called me.. so i was kinda tokiing rubbish..
woahehehes.. sorrie kor.. pls sms yeahz..

and em.. i and about to go to skl lehz..
ill be goinng tu bedok ite.. Digital media design..

i love my man..

2006-04-19T00:52:00.000+08:00

okie.. lets say.. these people are IMPT tuu miee.. i love every single one who appeared in thes collage.. smoochiies <<3

2006-04-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

say im evil... say ived changed..

im amber nort huiqin..

for heavens sake.. xiao hu ish nort a CHAO AH BENG!!! pengz* hiis a real nice person iif euu noe hiim lorhz.. wad ever iit ish, im happie.. say im stuborn.. i dun care... and im very sure im nort ~blinded by love.. i dun belive in such sayings.. pls people.. dun judge one by his/her looks.. dun tell miee euu dunnoe.. looks can be deceving.. dun say im good enough for someone else.. nothing will work out iif there ish no ~wad i corr ~ sparks.. my dear has hiis own good points.. and of coz hiss bad one.. ive seen it all.. and ii dun mind.. just support maii decicion.. be happy for miee.. people, smile for i am happy..

whooohooos.. goin shopping tml.. BIG smiles* and bez of all.. dear is gonna wait.. tou nort goin to village with us.. his WAITING for miee!! SMILES SMOOCHES HUGS*** tralalalalas.. shop shop shop..

dun ask miee why ive changed soo much.. tyme passes and euu* people are nort always by my side.. i had to adapt and its V natural that i change.. i had to be strong* in muua ownn way.. i had to change accordiing to da thiings that are gettiing intu mua life too..

people come in and out off mua life.. euu* who are reading thiis enrty ~ya buu lii wai~ i belive one day even iif euu see me on da street euu wun cor~ miee either.. maybe coz euu dun reconise miee.. maybe coz euu r too lazy.. or even maybe euu r not bothered to.. i dunnoe.. say i sound weird.. say i sound pesstimistic.. im just pin-pointing.. ((:

2006-04-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

ii belong tu hiim.. he iis all miine.. ii need nort shae more..

2006-04-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

hello pple.. thiss issh miiee... berry long never see my own pic appearing on my blog le.. hahas.. soo here iit iiss.. juz incase euu pple only rmb my name.. here is my FACE..

2006-04-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

okiie.. see i'm back from pluto.. back to blog again.. hahas.. okie.. hmms.. pluto was fun yeahz.. saw lots of nice things der.. things with 3 eyes 2 nose long long mouth bla bla bla.. okie i'm crappin again..

okiie lets look back.. i broke up with mark and got tgr wiith my xiiao hu.. and ii stopped bloggiin ever, tiill todae.. smiles* okiie.. ii was lazy.. totally.. nth much really happen larz.. but i dunnoe y i keep misplacing my stuffs.. lost my wallet and hp within like 2 weeks.. kinda dump.. but yeahz.. no idea whye.. em.. changed my hp to SE 550i.. hp number also change le.. now im using the red emily wallet lor.. spent some fucking 105 dollors to do a new ic.. )):

saw bth da and xiao mark and raymond at tpy the other dae.. and on the same fucking day we had some lots lots stupid daijii.. stupiid xiao gui from guang yang sec.. some idiotic daddy.. and my itchy hand hubbii.. haish.. that day was no smiles but tears fears and heartaches.. thank god euu r all fine now.. ((:

ii miss shoppiing.. oh yes ii sure do.. cant rmb when was the last tiime ii ever really shopped.. ii miss pamperiing myself with pedi-cures and stuff.. i miss spluring.. ii miiss walking down down and taking prints.. i miss watching MOVIES.. oh ii sure want to catch below 8.. someone catch some hints. hahahs.. dear dear~

well i didn blogg fer so long iis maybe becoz i realized how boring my life hav been.. i stopped working.. 24 hrs a day i pend like 10 hrs with hubbi and 5 hrs sms-in with hiim when i'm at hm watchin tv.. and the rest of the time sleeping and travelling.. BORING euu muz think.. but its bacome a routine ald.. i cant help iit.. ((: wad else can ii really blog about.. ~~ oh we kissed today.. he hugged me yesterday.. we went to k pool today.. k boz the next.. ~~ tralalalas.. my liife iis all bout hiim and K-ing and slacking..

and i surely miiss JATM.. linna daddy.. and all my GUIDES of OSS... euu people are surely nort forgotten.. pls pls pls meet up someday alrite.. and i need all euur CONTACT number back.. PS sms can.. spread my holy~ number ard.. TO PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW... lets organise a outing hao mahz.. once a guide always a guide..

msg to the admirer.. ps tell me euur name and stuff.. and which fren of euur actually hav link tuu my blog? how euu noe i might be the girl at amk..

hiis laopo amber..
loviing xiaohu hubbii..

2006-04-15T11:02:00.000+08:00

people pls pls pls delete my old num(92954968).. i freakingly lost my hp!! well its okie.. coz i got a NEW one!! smiles. woakakakas.. pls save the new number.. em... 93822730.. ps sms me with euur name.. ;)

im happy and contanted with my lill tiger nw.. he ish the bez.. smooches~ hubbii no more fights le kkies.. tralalalas..

LINNA EELIN JUNLING and all my GUIDES.. pls meet up someday.. i MISS EUU ALL..

mrs wong = amber
huiqin = hiis lady
baobeii = hu tai tai
hubbi = my man

2006-04-05T13:43:00.000+08:00

sorry pple out there readin my blog.. still carin fer miee.. thx.. i'm just too lazy to update.. im tired.. please call me at my hp instead.. thx..

2006-04-01T11:38:00.000+08:00

mark and ii.. we are over.. i broke up wiith hhim.. noo more questions.. thhankss..

ii met xiao hu.. ii'm wiith hiim ald.. noo questions eiither..

2006-03-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

i lost my wallet..

damn the fucker who picked it up and didn return.. i curse the hell out of euu..

thx sky, bao bei, shu jaun, jolyn and baby.. sorry fer all the trouble.. thx fer the money.. thx feer bein der..

2006-03-22T01:10:00.000+08:00

people, iim not nice.. seriosly..

im amber.. some gal on streets that u'll hear her screaming anything unpleasent.. some ugly freak.. someone hu really iis qiian biian.. i hate myself..

ask me again.. where iis huiqin.. where iis the nice girl.. the one who noes nth much in the outside world.. the sua teng de sua ku~.. the one who hates stick-ers~ the one who speaks nicely..

i lost her.. lost fer quite sometyme i realised today..

drowned in my own tears.. swolled by my own sorrows.. killed by myself..
huiqin is dead in the hands of amber..

2006-03-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

thiis boy iis reall cute! how ii wiish my son will look liike hiim.. as iin iin the future lahz.. pengz~ anyway ii was at BK plaza when ii took thiis pic.. i was goiing crazy over thiis cute lill boy.. i went mad when someone went over and gave em' some cute bk crown~.. he looked at my cam!! okie.. let put iit that he diao me.. wad ever.. hiis cute.. totally.. smiles~ pintch pintch*.. hahas.. iif randy see thiis i bet he'll say hao chi hao chi*.. hahas.. slaps*

2006-03-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

ii thought thiis was V niice..

2006-03-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

ii was doiin some thiinkiing today.. looked at my friieds ard me.. and thought of myself.. ii realised that normally ( not all ) giirls who are like average looking ( or worse ) , theiir relationship last super long.. okiie like more than 3 mths at least.. hahas.. ii looked at myself.. and ii thought again.. maybe ugly giirls get cheat easily too.. as iin love~ in the sence feelings~ not body~.. okie i should stop here.. no ill intentions.. not trying to suan anyone or praise myself.. just some personal thoughts.. =))

ii feel kinda useless somethiimes.. im a total biitch too.. :))

my sales these few day iis liike shiit.. totally.. too much stiicks.. tryiing to cut down.. i love mentos.. :)) i love my lill puppy randy!! i mean i do okie.. hahas.. kisses~ seng iis niice.. but he loves to chii chu.. sam.. i love hiis ring.. dun intend to return lehz~.. im still alrite with the rest.. nth much..

when iim free euu r not.. when euu r free.. im not.. euu were rite.. indeed.. we are driffitiin apart.. i criied.. now ii totally hav no idea who ii can turn to for chats.. jie jie dun farking care.. john kor is leaviing.. for army in few days time.. joanna is farr too busy for me.. randy knows nth much.. im always left alone.. by euu.. and em' ?

cries of help never reach anyone.. they never did..

iif u ever where to hold the key to my heart.. hold it tite.. dun ever loose iit.. or i'll be gone too..

i fell.. i'm dead.. thiis iis not miie.. its just her..

2006-03-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

stop comparing.. i'll start to HATE.. not only u but also the one whom u used me to compare with.. i know u see nth good in me.. say im useless.. say i suck.. i dun care.. not anymore.. define home~ to me again.. i cant rmb wad it means anymore.. tell me wad family~ means.. i cant rmb either..

tie me anymore tighter.. i'll get more rebellious.. once i break free.. u'll never get me back.. the more u keep me indoors.. the more i never want to go back~.. once i break free from ur cluntches.. u'll never find me~ back again.. i'll get so bad i promise, u'd rather u never gave birth to me..

i meant wad i said last nite.. once i find a room.. i'll move out..

2006-03-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

the idea of goin back to skl suddenly seemed so far..

the thought of being with eu makes me numb..
u asked me if i wanted to reconsider our realationship last nite..
u asked if i still loved eu..
eu knew what my ans were..
but what will urs be if ii asked the same thing?
i cried..

i cried again.. my best work mate cannot work..
some family problem..
no one will be there to steng~ with me..
share mentos with me.. carry my bag..
draw some smile on my face..
buy me my poka green tea and my dou naii~..
i cried.. i'll miss my lill puppy!!
da gou gou hao xiang xiao gou gou~

say im a sadist
i cant cant be bothered..
say im spoilt
i'm just pampered..
say i suck
i'm just better than u..

2006-03-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck.. im all fucking screwd up today.. its all shit... i hav no skl to go to.. and the fucking ite system is all screwed up.. damn it! fuck the hell! my day is bad enough!! for hells sake im only 17!! why giv me so many fucking problems in ONE fucking day??!! CCB la!! KNN!!!

i feel so darn shitty now.. no replies.. my phone hav gone all so silent aft he sent me away.. no skl to go to.. i tried to apply.. i did.. i cant grt in.. now even if i want to try again oso cannot.. the stupid system is all cocked up.. i cant get into the freaking page to check vacancy!!! am i soo damn fucking bad? send me to hell than.. GO AHEAD!! fuck care..

all dead..

no mood to blog..
all fucked up~

2006-03-13T09:44:00.000+08:00

hi.. im back to blog again.. hahas.. the it show is over.. well.. i am quite pleased that there is someone out there to keep me company.. hahas.. my lill randy xiao di.. hahas... w/o fail i'll receive hiis msg everyday.. hahas.. *jiie.. bla bla bla.. * jie lalala.. and of coz my loved one will call me everynite when work is over fer the day.. loved* we'll chat like hours.. i love hiim.. hiis my man.. wo hen aii hen aii mark wong.. muackz..

berry sad.. someone supposingly to be kors kors ( also working with asus ) thought that im a *jiie jiie to them!! pengs* okie they are like 18 or more and they freakingly thought that im like 19 or OLDER.. fuck.. whats wrong.. pple usually say i got the zhang bu da face and am chidish giirl.. okie.. maybe its my hair colour bahz.. and i didn really tok or smile at them.. i was dao? and that makes me old? bullshit lor.. i still dun get it la.. wadever..

hiis daddy mummy knows.. =X but hiss daddy mummy never object.. =) big big SMILE.. hiis always niice to me.. but have been especially nice to me these few days ( aft hiis parents found out ) i noe im loveD by my xiao mark lao gong..

meeting joanna today.. i miss my bitch.. hahas.. she is one bes fren i can ever hav.. i love ter and xian too.. these 3 pple made the colours in my life..

berry long nv tok to john le.. i miss hiim.. slaps.. so many things wanna tell him..

everybody,

im loved..

2006-03-09T08:56:00.000+08:00

whoops* off from OCN.. no rest tou.. will see me at suntec later.. workin again.. laughs*

met my baby yest.. smiles* was at his place with da mark and fabien.. they play mahjongg and i entertained myself with mapple.. lol.. yeahs.. nth much tou.. i just wan to say.. i miss my baby..

haiz.. im trying to create an entry here.. trying to look for things to blog bout.. sad* my life is getting more n more borin.. all i'll think of is work slack money and hiim.. no life.. trash..

2006-03-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

i so seriously think that we r driffting apart.. slowly bit by bit.. day by day.. we r walking out of each others life.. ask me when was the last time u ever really hugged me.. i dun remember.. last time u ever looked into my eyes and say i love u~ i cant recall either..

everyone keeps asking me.. why u like never msg ur bf one?~ i dunnoe how to ans.. nv msg nv meet oso can staed ar~ i'm stunned.. like that oso call bf ar ~ i cried..

2006-03-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

woots.. my new hair done! nice nice.. okie.. well done like 3 days ago... with my jojo.. im still awake.. oh yes i am.. still waitin fer hiis call.. sighz*

2006-03-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

i just reach home!! im tired.. oh yes i am.. guess im black listed in dynacel.. but well i dun care anymore.. vyon treats me better and i feel that he is a better boss.. thumbs up for vyon and OCN!! smiles*

OCN is a fun place.. and pple there are nice.. well so far.. hahas... seng seng da tou and vyon.. nice pple.. tralalalas*

i hav to stay up tonite.. i have to.. for the sake of my loved one.. he said he missed me! hahas.. i miss him MORE.. gonna stay up and wait for his call.. i will.. perservere.. i hope we'd last long long long.. i really do..

hahas.. never thought i could like someone so much.. if it were me in da past i'd ditch hiim llong ago.. rite pple? but that is iff.. hahas.. this iss love.. yees..

i lurvve my xiaoo mark laoo gongg..

2006-03-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

woots.. i like these two pics most.. lurve joanna lots.. BFFs fer life..

2006-03-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

rotting half my day away at home.. well its okie.. coz i'll be out with jojo later.. joanna that is not jolyn.. hahas.. my two bezzies both i call JO.. lolx.. got my billabong bag yesterday! smiles.. totally proud.. its the last piece in purrfect condition.. proud*

it smeed like i reaally like pink and white.. but seriously i prefer black.. okie.. just recently im into black make ups and accessories.. khool and hot.. licks*

i love mark wong.. oh yes ii do.. ii wanna be wong tai.. oh yes ii do..

i love all my friiends.. ii love everyone whom have been always so dearly taking care of me when ii'm down and wipiing away my freaking tears.. everyone who tried to force my smiles out with some not funniie joke but id always luagh.. i love everyone and that includes my

highlight
pink* kor kor - the old freaking leaking jio cheng story which i hated the most..

im a wong tai wannabe..

im still working on *trust and i belive i can do iit.. hopefully..

2006-02-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

amber "v" hearts "v" mark ~`*`^ 240106 ^`*`~

2006-02-26T19:38:00.000+08:00